The greatest way of loving a person is to give up all your selfish desires for his/her happiness
i felt tiS sentence quite true....i shouldn't be selfish i guess...hahaz

ok...actually i worte alot of things abt sat(fm playing bat...to having lunch to going hm one)...but in the end the entire things i wrote was being erased so(maybe God wun want mi tO write tat out)...i decided nt to write again...waste my time...i will start fm when i got hm from playing batminton with hy and daryl...then went to get edusave and rot and hm...until around 7.30pm i went online tO watch chc srv 3 live ...i began tO get envious ...i can't join then there....main reason...mum wun allow...alot of bad memories flooded over mi sia...abt the persecution....mi thought tat last yr i could go to church when my mum suddenly asked mi abt believing in God...i thought tat my mum was willing to open up her door to welcome Jesus into her heart...but eventually when she went to my cousin's church...she started to stop believing liaoz...and forced mi nt to go church...nt to be so devoted ....it was then tat my faith began to lose each dae...i noe tat she cared for mi(the srv ended late...around 10pm reached hm abt 11pm++) but the main reason i noe was tat she dun want mi tO be devote my time on church but on study and achieving gd results(tat's every typical parents dreamz and aim). but hey...i never gave up on praying ...yupz...and mum said tat i could go church provided that my health was well larhz...coz i got bad cough...yupz...it began to improve liaoz...but jt haben improve... i talk wib my mum...tink she allow mi to go until after i get my Os results then she dun want mi to go liaoz...haiz...i hab to find a way to go....i must go srv nxt sat...i dun care! hahaz...i believe God will provide mi the way! i mus hab faith! i muS nt lose hope and faith! i musn't!

not 4 getting.................

went tO sUN church service coZ sat mum wun allow mi 2 gO...haiZ....can't even c Bro Derrick 4 the last timE b4 he gO 4 pOlice forCE ....but at least i can gO 4 suN one...Thx God....but stiLL cannOt get 2 c him...coZ he iS busy...haB 2 rest weLL and pacK stuFFs....meet SuiSui at boonlay...she also went 4 CHC...sO gD...hmm...dunO if she's going tO gO CHC for permanent anot....really hope she could join here! hahaZ...then hab lunch at Jurong Pt ...jt and i ate kuay tiao mee ....we ordered soup based one...but duno y the auntie gave uS the dry one...then went to kahtib cafe...willie taught mi, jt and min hui lesson 6 GS....haiZ...still left one more chp...hope can finish fast....haiZ...can't gO 4 the 2 session...hab 2 gO thru the CIC 1st....if can gO 2 2 session then mi and jT can go YMCA together sia....haiZ....cough all da way hm and until i dozed off....beri xin ku....todae mum forbib mi going to sch...tOOk mi 2 c doctor...now my throat still beri itchy...veri unbearable....haiZ...muS get well sOOn...so then i can gO church and hope mum would let mi gO...haiZ....mi wanted tO buy a bible asap...coZ bible lOst sia...haiZ...mi beri careleSS...nv teLL anione except jt and hy...coZ dun want others to noe....mi beri irresponsible horhZ...they already hab their own problems to handle liaoZ...mi dun wanna add another burdan to them...sO muS blame myself and solve the problem myself....haiZ...getting bursary on sat...haiZ...crash wiB Church service...so how? mi beri luan liaoZ...wat's happening tO mi? starting of 1st yr alreadi got sO much problems liaoZ...dun wana tO think ahead sia....mi should haB faith in GoD riteZ....let God guide mi on ba....i really tO tired tO carry the burdan liaoZ....God i must hab faith...imust!!!!

Awwwww look how sweet your guy is gonna be. He's taking you on a walk while it's snowing. Instead he could be at home with his friends drinking hot cocoa. But no he chose to be with you. the only one he's ever gonna love:)

new year iS finally here...hahaZ...todae stiLL raining...colD....okie...toking abt yesterdae...n237 hab a new year eve BBQ at Eugene'S hse...raining in the morning...jt hy and i went to a joB interView...bro derrick told jT to gO...jt ask uS to accompany her...okie we go...hy iS dowN wiB flU...she siaoZ....wanted to haB feVer...dunO wat's she tinking abt....ppL dun want tO have fever she want...haha...my highest record of fever was erm i forgot when liaoZ..i noe its during CNY ....41.9de9reeC...haha....not really that high...but it was really xin kU lorhZ...i can't even walk properly then... bad thing was that i can't eat the CNY gOOdieS(u should noe...no mooD to sae out hahaZ)...haiZ...nvm...and hy sae she want tO hab fever...hahaZ...after the joB thingy... we went to hunt for boxeS for jt and my mortaLS ...i brought cooKieS( a whole tin of them) coZ i can't finish it...hahaZ...so going to wrap the remaining cOOKieS for our mortaL and bro derriCk... wow...the present for my mortaL aka brian...cost mi a bomb...now i'm po chan liaoZ(broke)haiZ....so sad...but nvm...tmr got $$ liaoZ...going to take our salary hahaZ...after we brought the thingS...we went to kahtiB and get the cards and presents done...tooK abt 2 hrS...write untiL hands painZ...hahaZ...but nvm...never regret it...then we meet hy's fren...17yrs olD..heard it's her birthdae! haha...treat uS some frieS...btw...we never haB our luncH...then we set oFF to bukit batoK to wait for bro derrick...wait and wait...he's not there yet...so we went for the toilet...outside got alot of ppL selling tickets...for charity...of course we dun hab money liaoZ...all spent on the presents and cards liaoZ mah...but hen9 the gaL let uS go...i remember one time in yishun mrt when we say that we dun hab money liaoZ...a gaL gave uS that sickening face...she haD tiS lOOk that saes (so cheapstake...dun tink you are sO bi9) hahaZ...tiS type oF gaL ...at 1st so polite ...but then suddenly so fierce... haiZ...a ticket for $5...for charity? you are kidding...the $5 was not for charity...not aLL...only $2 are for charity..the remaining $3 are for the young ppL who are selling the ticket...i rather buy a fooD package for the Tsunami victimS...$10...all for them....heheZ...which i've brought...okieZ...then later bro derrick came...we took a taxi to Eugene's hse...wow hiLLview...condO...there's 2 doorS wow...we went fm the kitchen door..hahaZ...so big sia...then we wait for moRe ppL to come..and gave out some cardS..ahaZ...untiL abt 5pm then we start the cell grP...some praises and worship...watch clipZ..photoS...then...awards presentation...funni awards but they deserve it..having to serve faithfuLly mahZ! then pray for Anthony and Arianto they in indonesia...stiLL no newS of them...okie...then we went downstairS to BBQ...lolX...i help out wiB the sticking the chicken win9s...into the metaL stickS lolX...mi invent the nameS...haha coZ i duno wat they caLL...ar 1st not succeSSfuL coZ...i kept poking at the boneS...lolZ..also duno how in the enD successfuL...haha...then wash hands and go eat liaoZ....wow..there got chicken win9s...fried rice...beehoon...curry(niceZ)...jt and hS went toK toK and eat...duno go where ...while hy and mi enjoY the fooD ....hahaZ...nice...soon got satay...wow...everytime...at campS and outingS when got BBQ horhZ...i always help ppL bbQ ...in the end aLL the shao jiao thingys i eat...all satay kop by ppL eating...haiZ...but yeaterdae beri forturnate...i manage to try the satay...erm let mi c...when was the last time i try satays? erm...2yrS back? haha...also erika...kop my curry potato...so bad...hahaZ nvm...then jt and hS came back liaoZ...then rain and stop and rain and stop...haha..soon jt and i went walk walk...gaLs talk...haha...then daryL suddenly follow uS...also dunO y sia...then we kop hiS lightstick for a while hahaZ...continue toking lorhZ...we then visit the toilet ...wow...got sauna sia...so gd!!!okie...we then go back and after some time we played the angeL and mortaL game...haha..not really that fuN...coZ mani ppL noe who's their mortal and angeL mahZ...and also some ppl never come...some no pressie...muS receive later le...then we took group photo...oh...we also got our cg t-shirt...todae going to wear to service hahaZ...a bit plain...but overall nicEZ...hee...bro derrick saes that he received sms fm Anthony and Arianto that they are not okayZ...but stiLL praise the Lord that although they are not okayZ...but at least we noe that they are safe and alive...praying that God would continue protecting them...then we went hm...as we are going out of the place...a malay couple came to ask mi if i'm an indonesian...omg...do i look like one?he also asked jt and bro DerricK lolx...and they asked alot of strange qnS...scare mi sia...the man looKs like drunk...luckily got bro derrick and jt there...or else i really duno wat to do...then on train countdown haha...untiL yishuN liaoZ...however...something happen...i almost 4got to return aki's wallet...or else she cannot gO hm liaoZ...i returned her but i tOO late to go out og the train...then dOOr closed...haiZ...jt they aLL laughed...so bad sia...haha...then hy accompany mi wait for the nxt train at kahtib...so gd...she sick stiLL accompany mi...arrived at yisHun...so paiseH...aLL of theM waited downstairs for mi...hahaZ...juS wanna sae tO them soRRy and thanKs ! hahaZ...really beri blur that niteZ..maybe tOO tired liaoZ...okie...that's aLL ba...

24th...during countdown...to lazy to write...u can check at the eggies bloG...hehZ...25th went for the indoor stadium to celebrate christmas...wow i luV the show...especially the danceS...oh...it's
so wonderfuL....then we went to hab lunch at maC...jt got fed up coZ i dun wanna eat...but then i had to give in coZ i dun want her be hungry and she really muS eat...heheZ26th...went to orchard with jt,hy, daryl and hiS frenZ...juS shopping..they we split up liaoZ...i and jt went to woodlands while hy and daryl went to Kinokuniya..then for joB....then in woodland jt and i went to buy some cards and i went hm to decorate the mu9...i drew until beri ugly...so chan kui sia.... 27th i went out wib huiqi...to kboX...hehX...sang alot of song...i neber ask jt and hy...really sorrie...coZ i duno they wanna go anot...haiZ...it's moi fault sia....we tok abt our job...she complain to mi abt her joB...family...i noe its beri hard for her...but she tried to conceal it...she even laugh when she told mi her troubles....but i'm too blur and stupid...juS duno how 2 comfort her...but u can actually count on mi...i'm a gd listener...but not a gd speaker...what i can juS do was to giB her a pat on her shoulders or giB her a huG...tat's juS i can do...haiZZZ.....i felt moiself useless lehZ.... :(...when i'm sad..i always show out my emotions...i felt moiself very bad sia...i sumtimes neber thought of other ppl feelings...fm now on i should not express my emotions liaoZ...muS put on a happy face...i dun want ppl to be sad together wiB mi....heheZ...okie...let's not tok abt that liaoZ....28th...went out wiB jt,hy,daryl...to watched kungfU we sta at the 1st row...beri xing ku but quite worth it...funni show...especially when stephen chow and the "xiao long nu" ruN...laugh until i cry....heheZ...then we went shopping for jt and my mortal's pressie...while daryl went to buy hookS...in minitoons and amk...in the amk shop...the lao ban there was beri funni...seems to be in a super gD mooD...can hear him singing the moment i reached hiS shop...lolX...then went to northpoint...jt duno wat to buy for willie and veri fan....mi 2 wat...i also beri fan...duno wat 2 buy 4 brian...haiZ...in the end we didn't buy anything...heheZ...todae 29th going out with jt again to choose the pressie...for the last time for the mortal pressie...we hab 2 buy it todae...really muS buy liaoZ....going to prepared myself liaoZ...haizz.todae 6++am wake up...haizZ...when my family wake up liaoZ...i can't slp already...can u image ? 6 am....wanted to haB quiet time wiB God also cannot..cannot let parents noe...haiZ...going to hab moi quiet time now...b4 going to jt hse...mi stopping here....heh