new year iS finally here...hahaZ...todae stiLL raining...colD....okie...toking abt yesterdae...n237 hab a new year eve BBQ at Eugene'S hse...raining in the morning...jt hy and i went to a joB interView...bro derrick told jT to gO...jt ask uS to accompany her...okie we go...hy iS dowN wiB flU...she siaoZ....wanted to haB feVer...dunO wat's she tinking abt....ppL dun want tO have fever she want...haha...my highest record of fever was erm i forgot when liaoZ..i noe its during CNY ....41.9de9reeC...haha....not really that high...but it was really xin kU lorhZ...i can't even walk properly then... bad thing was that i can't eat the CNY gOOdieS(u should noe...no mooD to sae out hahaZ)...haiZ...nvm...and hy sae she want tO hab fever...hahaZ...after the joB thingy... we went to hunt for boxeS for jt and my mortaLS ...i brought cooKieS( a whole tin of them) coZ i can't finish it...hahaZ...so going to wrap the remaining cOOKieS for our mortaL and bro derriCk... wow...the present for my mortaL aka brian...cost mi a bomb...now i'm po chan liaoZ(broke)haiZ....so sad...but nvm...tmr got $$ liaoZ...going to take our salary hahaZ...after we brought the thingS...we went to kahtiB and get the cards and presents done...tooK abt 2 hrS...write untiL hands painZ...hahaZ...but nvm...never regret it...then we meet hy's fren...17yrs olD..heard it's her birthdae! haha...treat uS some frieS...btw...we never haB our luncH...then we set oFF to bukit batoK to wait for bro derrick...wait and wait...he's not there yet...so we went for the toilet...outside got alot of ppL selling tickets...for charity...of course we dun hab money liaoZ...all spent on the presents and cards liaoZ mah...but hen9 the gaL let uS go...i remember one time in yishun mrt when we say that we dun hab money liaoZ...a gaL gave uS that sickening face...she haD tiS lOOk that saes (so cheapstake...dun tink you are sO bi9) hahaZ...tiS type oF gaL ...at 1st so polite ...but then suddenly so fierce... haiZ...a ticket for $5...for charity? you are kidding...the $5 was not for charity...not aLL...only $2 are for charity..the remaining $3 are for the young ppL who are selling the ticket...i rather buy a fooD package for the Tsunami victimS...$10...all for them....heheZ...which i've brought...okieZ...then later bro derrick came...we took a taxi to Eugene's hse...wow hiLLview...condO...there's 2 doorS wow...we went fm the kitchen door..hahaZ...so big sia...then we wait for moRe ppL to come..and gave out some cardS..ahaZ...untiL abt 5pm then we start the cell grP...some praises and worship...watch clipZ..photoS...then...awards presentation...funni awards but they deserve it..having to serve faithfuLly mahZ! then pray for Anthony and Arianto they in indonesia...stiLL no newS of them...okie...then we went downstairS to BBQ...lolX...i help out wiB the sticking the chicken win9s...into the metaL stickS lolX...mi invent the nameS...haha coZ i duno wat they caLL...ar 1st not succeSSfuL coZ...i kept poking at the boneS...lolZ..also duno how in the enD successfuL...haha...then wash hands and go eat liaoZ....wow..there got chicken win9s...fried rice...beehoon...curry(niceZ)...jt and hS went toK toK and eat...duno go where ...while hy and mi enjoY the fooD ....hahaZ...nice...soon got satay...wow...everytime...at campS and outingS when got BBQ horhZ...i always help ppL bbQ ...in the end aLL the shao jiao thingys i eat...all satay kop by ppL eating...haiZ...but yeaterdae beri forturnate...i manage to try the satay...erm let mi c...when was the last time i try satays? erm...2yrS back? haha...also erika...kop my curry potato...so bad...hahaZ nvm...then jt and hS came back liaoZ...then rain and stop and rain and stop...haha..soon jt and i went walk walk...gaLs talk...haha...then daryL suddenly follow uS...also dunO y sia...then we kop hiS lightstick for a while hahaZ...continue toking lorhZ...we then visit the toilet ...wow...got sauna sia...so gd!!!okie...we then go back and after some time we played the angeL and mortaL game...haha..not really that fuN...coZ mani ppL noe who's their mortal and angeL mahZ...and also some ppl never come...some no pressie...muS receive later le...then we took group photo...oh...we also got our cg t-shirt...todae going to wear to service hahaZ...a bit plain...but overall nicEZ...hee...bro derrick saes that he received sms fm Anthony and Arianto that they are not okayZ...but stiLL praise the Lord that although they are not okayZ...but at least we noe that they are safe and alive...praying that God would continue protecting them...then we went hm...as we are going out of the place...a malay couple came to ask mi if i'm an indonesian...omg...do i look like one?he also asked jt and bro DerricK lolx...and they asked alot of strange qnS...scare mi sia...the man looKs like drunk...luckily got bro derrick and jt there...or else i really duno wat to do...then on train countdown haha...untiL yishuN liaoZ...however...something happen...i almost 4got to return aki's wallet...or else she cannot gO hm liaoZ...i returned her but i tOO late to go out og the train...then dOOr closed...haiZ...jt they aLL laughed...so bad sia...haha...then hy accompany mi wait for the nxt train at kahtib...so gd...she sick stiLL accompany mi...arrived at yisHun...so paiseH...aLL of theM waited downstairs for mi...hahaZ...juS wanna sae tO them soRRy and thanKs ! hahaZ...really beri blur that niteZ..maybe tOO tired liaoZ...okie...that's aLL ba...

24th...during countdown...to lazy to write...u can check at the eggies bloG...hehZ...25th went for the indoor stadium to celebrate christmas...wow i luV the show...especially the danceS...oh...it's
so wonderfuL....then we went to hab lunch at maC...jt got fed up coZ i dun wanna eat...but then i had to give in coZ i dun want her be hungry and she really muS eat...heheZ26th...went to orchard with jt,hy, daryl and hiS frenZ...juS shopping..they we split up liaoZ...i and jt went to woodlands while hy and daryl went to Kinokuniya..then for joB....then in woodland jt and i went to buy some cards and i went hm to decorate the mu9...i drew until beri ugly...so chan kui sia.... 27th i went out wib huiqi...to kboX...hehX...sang alot of song...i neber ask jt and hy...really sorrie...coZ i duno they wanna go anot...haiZ...it's moi fault sia....we tok abt our job...she complain to mi abt her joB...family...i noe its beri hard for her...but she tried to conceal it...she even laugh when she told mi her troubles....but i'm too blur and stupid...juS duno how 2 comfort her...but u can actually count on mi...i'm a gd listener...but not a gd speaker...what i can juS do was to giB her a pat on her shoulders or giB her a huG...tat's juS i can do...haiZZZ.....i felt moiself useless lehZ.... :(...when i'm sad..i always show out my emotions...i felt moiself very bad sia...i sumtimes neber thought of other ppl feelings...fm now on i should not express my emotions liaoZ...muS put on a happy face...i dun want ppl to be sad together wiB mi....heheZ...okie...let's not tok abt that liaoZ....28th...went out wiB jt,hy,daryl...to watched kungfU we sta at the 1st row...beri xing ku but quite worth it...funni show...especially when stephen chow and the "xiao long nu" ruN...laugh until i cry....heheZ...then we went shopping for jt and my mortal's pressie...while daryl went to buy hookS...in minitoons and amk...in the amk shop...the lao ban there was beri funni...seems to be in a super gD mooD...can hear him singing the moment i reached hiS shop...lolX...then went to northpoint...jt duno wat to buy for willie and veri fan....mi 2 wat...i also beri fan...duno wat 2 buy 4 brian...haiZ...in the end we didn't buy anything...heheZ...todae 29th going out with jt again to choose the pressie...for the last time for the mortal pressie...we hab 2 buy it todae...really muS buy liaoZ....going to prepared myself liaoZ...haizz.todae 6++am wake up...haizZ...when my family wake up liaoZ...i can't slp already...can u image ? 6 am....wanted to haB quiet time wiB God also cannot..cannot let parents noe...haiZ...going to hab moi quiet time now...b4 going to jt hse...mi stopping here....heh

a beri lon9 dae on 24th...christmaS eve...heheZ...too bad that i and jt can't go 4 the fri service at indoor stadium...we went for out joB...mendin9 drinks stall...during the 1st hr at the joB...we began 2 fear coZ there was no customers...then we began 2 contribute to the sales...so sad...it was soon that we realised that we 4got 2 pray b4 comin9 sia...okayZ...then we began praying...keeping our faith that the sales will overshoot $100...after some time...more ppl came to our stall and buy drinks...but unfortunately we met a guy wanting a buy drinks fm us...however...jT giB the wrong change...we made a lost of $1...jT kept blaming herselF...(to jT aka bendan...dun blame urself k? i aka chundan also got wrong sia...but hey...it's nt our fault...it's the person's fault...no integrity...guyS out there...i really hate them)...we are also required to sell young coconut drinks...heheZ...but there was a problem...we dun noe how 2 pry open the coconuts...and we lost a potential customer...haiZ...heheZ...1st we began to experiment ourselves...it was super unsuccessfuL...we try mani ways...and that include chopping...prying with our hands...and eventually resort to smashing it on the floor...the coconut was damm harD sia...nothing that we hab done could open tat...really a damm stubbon coconut...left wib no other choice...jT went to find the boSS to show uS how 2 open the coconuts...the boSS asked a staff there to show uS...wow...he was highly skilled...heheZ...in less than 20S...the coconut was pry open...but he soon saw the stubbon coconut..and asked us why the coconut was in that shape... we said duno...but in our hearts we noe what happened.hehZ...stayed there a while...some customers asked for the coconut...and he opened it for uS...however..he left soon after that...and left uS to fend for ourself....then i began to follow his stepS..trying to open the stubbon coconut for the beri last time...hahaZ...finally it was successfuL...yeah! we tried the coconut..eww abit sour...hoping that the staFF would not find out abt the coconut...we threw it away...and juS in time more ppl began to ask for the coconut...i tried to open it...at 1st uncessfuL..and after quite a long time...i managed to open it...yay...we sold sum of them...however...an indian family came...it was tat time that i felt a feeling that they are going to buy coconuts...and yeS...they wanted to buy them...not one...not two...but 8 coconuts!!! can u imagine? 8 coconutS...how am i suppose to do that when i hab minimum experience?...i began 2 fear...but i stayed calm noeing that by God's strength and grace...i can do it! Yes ...i really did it...although my hands and clothes are streak with coconut juice...but i noe it was worth it...that earned us $19...as they also brought some canned drinks...hehZ..i can now open a shop selling coconut drinks...mi whole dae opening the coconut...hehZ...yeah..in moi dreamZ of course...it was a tiring joB sia...the staff came back and for the rest of the night...he opened the coconuts for uS...thX God sia...time passed really fast...soon it was 9pm...10pm...more ppl began streaming Orchard and somerset...our sales are rising like siaoZ...we reached the $200 peak..!praise the LorD! yeah!!! then hy aka akisora aka huaidan came wiB kenneth...they are waiting 4 uS to go countdown...soon at 11:30++ liddat we are released fm our stall...and go countdown...(tiS part of the details can be found in eggies blog...i tired...so i copy)...tmr then write abt the later part at countdown...to tried to refresh memory liaoZ...yawnZ* yesterdae onli sleep 3 hrs (fuLL) beri tired...

todae is Christmas eve...haiZ...although cannot go 4 the indoor stadium todae...but hey...so glad that i can go countdown!!!so happi!! want 2 thx God for bleSSing mi wiF the joB...or else i can't even go for both...i'm going for indoor stadium on tmr morning...most of my GB frenZ are going for Glory Joy dinner todae...although cannot join them...although i feel bad... well nvm...i must enjoY moiself todae no matter wat!hehe...actually it doesn't matter to mi much...i'm already beri fortunate liaoZ....having the chance to celebrate christmas wib jt and hy at the drink stall is already a blessing to mi .... :) heheZ...can we treat urself wib tiger beer later? lolX...then after that i tink some N237 ppl will come 2 our stall n support uS...hehe....then together going countdown....but want 2 apologise to them...coZ i haben make then any cards and pressie sia....hope they wun mind...mi still trying to reach out for my frens to go indoor stadium....praying and begging that they would go 4 tmr one....okie...going to bathe and prepare moiself for the job liaoZ...later going to jt hse 1st...hope that i can look at the 13th coy cD...my com cannot open tat...so sad...i tink the cD is DVD enabled onli ba...juS duno the reason why it can't open...is my com old? not really mahZ...is plantium4 really tat old? when i put my cD into the drive...the spot-light kept flashing....and nothing comes out....okieZ... hope i can open it at jt hse...my onli chance le...if can... then i copy into anot cD ...heheZ

haben write for a few daes liaoZ....most of the time reach hm at abt midnite....mum forbid mi using com tat late...so now got time 2 write liaoZ...heheZ...hmmm...let mi tok abt fridae 1st...i went for the youth discipleship camp (12.30pm-4.30pm) aniway...i left abt 3.30 pm liddat....the camp it's abt ( i believe in you)...toking abt ur spiritual leadership....how 2 be an good armour-bearer for your cell-grp leader...toking of that....hmmm...wat should i gif bro derrick for christmas pressie? Christmas is approaching and i dun hab much time 2 shop for pressie sia...also... my pay was not out yet...i could see my torn wallet...so sad...then i and jt went to work...selling can drinks...we had to write a list of can drinks that we sold mahZ...and one of the can sold was root beer...and she wrote root bear....we laughed and i show her what i worte a few daes ago in the list.....root bear 2 ! hehe...frenZ really think alike! a real-life example here...guess what i dream that nite? i'm selling can drinks...and i recognise a tiger beer can...as i was abt to sell it to a customer...i was shocked...the can was labelled as tiger-bear!!! lolX ...i noe it's lame...but it's a dream that i'll neber 4get in my life....then saturdae emerged...i went to the round-up parade...although that dae was raining...and i came to sch drenched...but it was a really fun and touching dae that hab crafted into my heart...habing some worship....and games ...then the most touching scene...we get to watch a video that was created specially for us by our officer Ms Sherine...but she was not there...she was in hospital....oh...dun mistaken...she was there for a special reason...a baby gal was born...heard them sae she was named Jadlyn...oh so sweet...We watched the video...which hab brought us back many memories...specially in GB fm 2000-2004...a place where we shed not only sweat...but also tears and blood...a place where our frenship blossoms...fm we're juS another blur blur sec one daes...to now graduating...time really past unknowingly....the most touching part is when Ms sharon read to us a letter which Ms Sherine had wrote when she was in labour...everybody couldn't hide our tears at that point of time...a mixed feeling that each and everyone of us had and know deeply in our hearts...a feeling that was really hard to bear...we then got a CD of the video...soon...we then go out of the ava rm...ms joyann touched cf and mi on our shoulders and said 'Mus come to the cell-grp more often k? we will miss you' then i hugged her again...sniff...at that point of time...i really felt myself as a traitor...as i beginning to think of the path that i have chosen recently...i began to think...issit a big mistake? hab i chosen a wrong path? Dear heavenly God, hab i? God, i put my life into your hands...that you will help me to choose the right path...i'm really on a verge of breaking down... :( i believe in you and put my trust in you .In Jesus name, most mightly name i give thanks and pray.Amen. Saturdae...went to church...too bad i can't attend the sun dae service...abt Sy rogers...but hey...i get to watch some part on the internet...praise the Lord...and i remembered one thing that he said there...it's not how the people think...it is what u perceive the things to be.... a sentence that leaves me to think alot...thinking abt which path should i go....

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oh...i haben write for quite a long time le....heheX...
finally found a job...it's at point food court...in a mini jap restaurant...
well...however...i hab 2 run their mini stand a few metres away fm the restaurant....selling can drinks...haiZ...well maybe going to change job soon...hope God would bleSS us wiF a good joB wif a good pay...heheX...muS hab faith sia...well...dun really hab time to update and design my bloG...sis booked the nite for herself to the com...i mostly go out during the day...so no time to enjoy myself to use the com...kekeZ..u can c the blog wif big gapS...not realli much to update...heheZ...Christmas is coming soon...countdown...erm 11 daes left...wooohoooo...going to enjoy myself...when i got the pay..i'm going to use 10% for tithe....the rest to pamper moiself and buy pressie...haiZ...duno got enough to buy prerssie anot sia...todae...i got the EAGLES award ...heheZ...1st time sia...so happy (bliSS) ...yay...got $150 ...although a small amount...i'm sure to make fuLL use of it...hmmm.duno wat to get for the frenZ pressie...so hard to choose...best thing...i dun tink i got enough time to shop for pressie...wanted to go wif my sis to shop...but we are busy...haiZ...wif different free time...hardly hab time to accompany her to shop...i wanted to go wif her...hope tat i got time to do so...it's been a long time that we shop liaoZ...miss the daes...if i tell her tat...tink she will gif me tiS kind of looK.....(-_-")....okie...but i really would like to go shopping wiB her...dunnoe the reason...but usually i feel at ease wiB her...ofcourse larhZ...she 's moi sis marhZ....we can tok anything freely btw each other one...or issit not? tis made me remember one incident...when i was juS a primary sch kiD...while she's in secondary sch...a time when i remember we visited a toy store ba...i was curious at a monopoly display...and b4 i got to touch it ( inches away)... part of the display fall off ...a few monopoly sets topple to the ground...well...and b4 i could turn my head towards my sister...i knew one thing... tat she was nt by my side anymore...she had ran away...probably tat she thought i was the culprit for the topple incident...angry indeed...but alot more sad... :( ... i put back the sets..and some passerby helped me...after tat...i went to find her...well...i found her...but she treat the whole incident as if nothing had happened...she didn't even sae a sorri tat she had left me there...of course i scolded her...heheZ...i knew i should'nt hab done tiS...but at tat time i was already fuming wiB rage....a childhooD memory tat i would nt be able to 4get...although she left me alone mani times...but i still luB her as my sister(eww...so mushy)...to my sis if u r reading tiS...u should now wat to do...buy mi a pressie 4 Chirstmas!!!!!!