The greatest way of loving a person is to give up all your selfish desires for his/her happiness
i felt tiS sentence quite true....i shouldn't be selfish i guess...hahaz

ok...actually i worte alot of things abt sat(fm playing bat...to having lunch to going hm one)...but in the end the entire things i wrote was being erased so(maybe God wun want mi tO write tat out)...i decided nt to write again...waste my time...i will start fm when i got hm from playing batminton with hy and daryl...then went to get edusave and rot and hm...until around 7.30pm i went online tO watch chc srv 3 live ...i began tO get envious ...i can't join then there....main reason...mum wun allow...alot of bad memories flooded over mi sia...abt the persecution....mi thought tat last yr i could go to church when my mum suddenly asked mi abt believing in God...i thought tat my mum was willing to open up her door to welcome Jesus into her heart...but eventually when she went to my cousin's church...she started to stop believing liaoz...and forced mi nt to go church...nt to be so devoted ....it was then tat my faith began to lose each dae...i noe tat she cared for mi(the srv ended late...around 10pm reached hm abt 11pm++) but the main reason i noe was tat she dun want mi tO be devote my time on church but on study and achieving gd results(tat's every typical parents dreamz and aim). but hey...i never gave up on praying ...yupz...and mum said tat i could go church provided that my health was well larhz...coz i got bad cough...yupz...it began to improve liaoz...but jt haben improve... i talk wib my mum...tink she allow mi to go until after i get my Os results then she dun want mi to go liaoz...haiz...i hab to find a way to go....i must go srv nxt sat...i dun care! hahaz...i believe God will provide mi the way! i mus hab faith! i muS nt lose hope and faith! i musn't!

not 4 getting.................

went tO sUN church service coZ sat mum wun allow mi 2 gO...haiZ....can't even c Bro Derrick 4 the last timE b4 he gO 4 pOlice forCE ....but at least i can gO 4 suN one...Thx God....but stiLL cannOt get 2 c him...coZ he iS busy...haB 2 rest weLL and pacK stuFFs....meet SuiSui at boonlay...she also went 4 CHC...sO gD...hmm...dunO if she's going tO gO CHC for permanent anot....really hope she could join here! hahaZ...then hab lunch at Jurong Pt ...jt and i ate kuay tiao mee ....we ordered soup based one...but duno y the auntie gave uS the dry one...then went to kahtib cafe...willie taught mi, jt and min hui lesson 6 GS....haiZ...still left one more chp...hope can finish fast....haiZ...can't gO 4 the 2 session...hab 2 gO thru the CIC 1st....if can gO 2 2 session then mi and jT can go YMCA together sia....haiZ....cough all da way hm and until i dozed off....beri xin ku....todae mum forbib mi going to sch...tOOk mi 2 c doctor...now my throat still beri itchy...veri unbearable....haiZ...muS get well sOOn...so then i can gO church and hope mum would let mi gO...haiZ....mi wanted tO buy a bible asap...coZ bible lOst sia...haiZ...mi beri careleSS...nv teLL anione except jt and hy...coZ dun want others to noe....mi beri irresponsible horhZ...they already hab their own problems to handle liaoZ...mi dun wanna add another burdan to them...sO muS blame myself and solve the problem myself....haiZ...getting bursary on sat...haiZ...crash wiB Church service...so how? mi beri luan liaoZ...wat's happening tO mi? starting of 1st yr alreadi got sO much problems liaoZ...dun wana tO think ahead sia....mi should haB faith in GoD riteZ....let God guide mi on ba....i really tO tired tO carry the burdan liaoZ....God i must hab faith...imust!!!!

Awwwww look how sweet your guy is gonna be. He's taking you on a walk while it's snowing. Instead he could be at home with his friends drinking hot cocoa. But no he chose to be with you. the only one he's ever gonna love:)