ok...actually i worte alot of things abt sat(fm playing bat...to having lunch to going hm one)...but in the end the entire things i wrote was being erased so(maybe God wun want mi tO write tat out)...i decided nt to write again...waste my time...i will start fm when i got hm from playing batminton with hy and daryl...then went to get edusave and rot and hm...until around 7.30pm i went online tO watch chc srv 3 live ...i began tO get envious ...i can't join then there....main reason...mum wun allow...alot of bad memories flooded over mi sia...abt the persecution....mi thought tat last yr i could go to church when my mum suddenly asked mi abt believing in God...i thought tat my mum was willing to open up her door to welcome Jesus into her heart...but eventually when she went to my cousin's church...she started to stop believing liaoz...and forced mi nt to go church...nt to be so devoted ....it was then tat my faith began to lose each dae...i noe tat she cared for mi(the srv ended late...around 10pm reached hm abt 11pm++) but the main reason i noe was tat she dun want mi tO be devote my time on church but on study and achieving gd results(tat's every typical parents dreamz and aim). but hey...i never gave up on praying ...yupz...and mum said tat i could go church provided that my health was well larhz...coz i got bad cough...yupz...it began to improve liaoz...but jt haben improve... i talk wib my mum...tink she allow mi to go until after i get my Os results then she dun want mi to go liaoz...haiz...i hab to find a way to go....i must go srv nxt sat...i dun care! hahaz...i believe God will provide mi the way! i mus hab faith! i muS nt lose hope and faith! i musn't!